Yippie!!

Sensex is so much common to life... full of volatility....n i believe my life is replicating it these days. My god what i 'd thought as the biggest blunder of my life turned into a beautiful blessing. M placed naa I AM PLACED ahan...I AM PLACED...n yeah ur destiny takes u where it has to...There is smth called luck...which is above ur knowledge..above ur capabilities n beyond ur scope of imagination. Nothing is there in our hands ...I just reminded of a saying "Best things happen when u least expect them to happen."

What a pity...somewhere deep inside u know very well...what u can do n what u cant but u just dont have enough confidence to accept this fact...today i can say...life is unpredictable n we should keep living it well without much botheration...coz whatever will happen to u is unseen...unknown....

So many mixed emotions are going inside me...n deep inside there is a weird numbness...why is it there i dont know...but for the moment ..thanku god...for being soooooo kind the dues are clear for the time being i can say:)

23

Finally i turned 23, after five years my birthday started in an unusual way.Minus a person but its okay i believe. The last week of the year 22 was full of so many turbulations that at one point i thought i will become insane for sure.......but i think we are far stronger than we actually think we are. It passed away n here i am alive n normal. Life is one beautiful experience n when you touch real low u realise its worth even more. Everyone made tremendous effort to make my day memorable...to make me happy...one thing i learnt was our life is not just our own we have responsibility of expectations and hopes of others..Probably after sometime i will laugh on whatever happened n as they its about moving on......it will take sometime but surely i ll be through it...Happy Birthday Honey...good luck for new year , new challenges n new experiences...lets see what year 23 has in store for u....muaaaaaaah.

Dialogue of the post: Jab we met- Company ki haalat bahut kharaab hai....issey bura kuch ho hi nahi sakta.......aage jo bhi hoga accha hi hoga.

Life nein bahut bura ho sakta hai.....whateva happned was nothing!!

Lamha ye jaega kahan...

yeah...m completely bowled over by this song these days...but the crux is i am kinda relating it to my own life...where is it goin...what is happening ...i am clueless...what do i want...is a big question?? There are certain important decisions to be taken...which i have been postponing for quite long...but i just cant decide cant make up my mind...n the biggest trouble is i dont know WHY?? i ve tonnes of impotant work to do n here i am bitten by this blog bug....pata nahi kya...
Dialogue of the post:
Meri laaj main,
Choonar bhi main,
Choonar pe daag bhi main.
yeah a line from a latest song...loved it...what a description of a woman!!

Anger Management

I had been thinking of writing on this topic for quite sometime but last few days made an ideal mood for the same. Anger...one of the considered vices...how do u deal with it....suppress it , express it or ignore it or dont get angry at all...i believe last category is for people who have risen above others....which i surely have not...I tried the suppressing theory for quite many years....n in the beginning it did work too...u get a saint kinda image in people...a good person....but later i realised unexpressed anger makes u bitter inside...its like venom or magnum in a volcano...which has to burst someday...n when it does the effects are catastrophic....like once a friend of mine said "zaahir nahin karegi toh kya gussa nahin aaega"...
Then came the expressing theory....complaining to people on little things...u did this right n this wrong....in short expressing anger at every petty thing....this makes u even more bitter...u feel as if all the time u are lashing out at people....n u have given everyone the right to make u angry...If we think carefully what makes u feel more bad.... someone who shouts at u n tells u clearly whats the matter or the one about whom u know is angry but aint ready to tell u what the matter is...takes may be different here...
Case I person would lash out n his bitter words may hurt u forever...
Case II person wont say nethin..but somwhere in ur mind u ll always feel that the other person has some negativity in his mind about u....
But i believe we can laugh with just anyone but there are jus very few people on whom u can shout ur heart out without having to remember...what u said?
How much i wish there were a course in anger management...the most surprising thing about anger i ve observed is we get irritated at same things all the time...unable to accept others' behaviours and habits at the cost of our own being rejected or uncared....

Hey India...

Its raining heavily outside...our 60th independence day is around the corner...i just remembered the 50th independence day...in schools there is a lot of hype about I-Day. That was the first time i participated in a public speaking competition...and could just speak the starting quotes..."At the stroke of midnight...."and some last words and forgot everything in between...kept shivering all the time and that silly partial teacher took away my speech for her son....and that cultural event where the whole India was being represented...we were made to represent Karnatka...i looked absolutely ugly in that red n white saree.......................................time moves fast ...real fast...its 60th now n just saw "Chak De India" so its like obvious to get a bit patriotic...

Sports always have this uniting effect on us...ever observed the way we shout when a six is hit or a boundary is made that joyful shriek is the purest form of emotion...comes from the most innocent corner of our heart...bringing out the child in us...n this time it was HOCKEY....i will call it the height of ignorance....never in my life i had seen a hockey match before this movie...god what a shame.The way the stick and the Ball move is so beautiful ...seems like two lovers are doing saalsa.

Happy independence day India darling...too proud to be part of u.

Dialogue of the post:" I am not marrying you...n learn some sportsman spirit."-Chak De India...Preeti sabharwaal...that chandigarh girl in movie.

Awesome it was slapping someone without hitting him...luvved it.

Blasted!!!!

It died....it died...
After years of living like a dead thing...it died finally
Am i sad? Is it paining? Am i relieved?
There is a universe of everyone...
if something goes out of it there remains a hole
which will never fill up
i dont even want to fill it up either
coz that reminds me of the wrongs i did
it ll be thr with me till the end of time
will it be?
was it so important?
no not important than me....
then why carry it
just dump it
how do i dump it?
My mind isnt ready to let it go...
jus shut this mind
forget it forget it forget it
its gone, its over, its dead....

Genuine....aahhhhhhhhhh

There is a plethora of expressions these days....orkut,messengers,SMSes are flooded with words n phrases like.....love u, miss u, sweetheart,darling, love ya loads, my baby......n what not.Everyone is being extra sugary in their written lingo.

I myself have so many people in my friends list with whom i had just a hi-bye relation when they were there in my life n now too they are just a part of list elongating the number only in list not in life.

On the other hand, have u ever noticed how does it feel after having a heart to heart conversation with someone close.One who knows u n whom u know.....taking out ur frustration on somebody without feeling guilty or bothering to remember it. It feels bad on the surface to listen to harsh words but just how many people take so much right on u to say whatever they wanna say .

To sum it up just wanna say....be bitter but be genuine n dont say the above mentioned beautiful n precious words if u dont mean them.

Dialogue of the post:"Har faisla tum nahi le sakti Romi, hamare saath na rehne ka faisla tumne kiya tha;
Ab humare phir se milney ka faisla main karunga".-Hrithik in Lakshya.
It was something like that.yeah yeah typical filmi dialogue but man the way he speaks...it sounds like a real man is speaking to his woman.Loved it.

No strings....

Hmmm...was talking to friend n while talking just casually said, "ours is a no strings friendship"....i wonder how did i speak these words? No strings....NO STRINGS....no strings...two words have stayed with me. There are people in our lives we just dont expect anything from them...not even a call on our birthday...but they are there...n u can go to them speak to them n comeback without expecting them to understand u or sorting out your matters...just speaking to them whenever n whatever....

Well this post is just a thought on no strings relationships....if i keep my orthodox mind and culture curry aside.... if your conscious allows u for such relationships i believe they are fine....although emotions always come in between....no no no emotional talk here...if ur mind allows u not to get attached with people...no strings is a good thing...enjoy life n move on...no expectations...nothing just living life with the flow....

Wow i am impressed somebody has become so liberal....i put myself for a second in this situation n cant imagine beyond...is it double standards or m taking culture's shade i dont know.....but people in no strings relationships my due respects to all of u....

Dialogue of d post: "Koi bhi rishta filhaal ke liye nahi hota".Sushmita sen- Filhaal.
I dont know what did it mean but just liked it.....ciao.

Cute hopes

Hmmm what are cute hopes....making it to good college....making it to good company.....achieving your strongly desired goal....

Nah...Nah....Nah...
Not such big things
cute hope would be mmmmm......having a full chocolate n hoping not to put on
fighting full fledge wid ur guy n still expecting him to call back....
tired leavin fr now

office chutney

oh its been 2 weeks now...i have to write about it...why should we reach office in time...i mean if u have some client waiting or some appointments its fine...but otherwise if u are late by 30 minutes i guess its okay...no no i am not defending myself....the thing is if u are doing your work properly how does it matter when did you enter the premises....but that RUPO or should i call har ROOPMATI (my time keeper) doesnt give up....."maddam (ya with that much stress on d) aap time dekho yeh office hai".....

That's just one sample i found in office.... absolutely hillarious....n then there are tireless workers, gossip mongers, energyless people, always ready to help kinda people, absolutely unconcerned people, scarry employees etc. etc.

How could i forget about d love birds in office...there 's a married couple.....oh they sit in front of each other but very mannered....kind of respect them.n if u talk about cute faces sorry guys d office is full of boring uncles(leaving one)....forget about females there are just a few....

I wonder how do these people run their homes...MC is paying them peanuts...but still they are happy n that's amazing.....everyday at MC is a new day....one day i am made a research analyst....the next day i am doing an office boy's work...another day m given job of an HR manager....finance companies are all about hustel n bustle...the clock strikes 3:30 n things get cooler....thats al for this time...

quote of d post:Just heard someone saying this in the office about market: " market kya hai jab upar jaati hai toh lagta hai aasmaan nahi , aur jab neechey aati hai toh lagta hai zameen nahi." absolutely simple n true explanation.

Cant think of d title....

We say so many things, some intentionally sm unintentionally, smtimes without even knowing what we are saying......n many times knowing but not even meaning them. People say certain things n forget them but words have their life.......they stay .....n reverberate. U take them light n nothing is there but get a little deep n mind starts its job....

Taking others too seriously is a bad habit i am telling you. I promise myself not to indulge in it but d words are just too fascinating. Will complete this post soon...

Dialogue of d post:"Imaan ki chalaang"-Gul Panag-Dor. It means try anything with full honesty n trust n u will win surely...this is what i derived out of it.

Water balls...

Gol gappe, Paani puri, Paani pataasey or d cute water balls.......i dont know what kinda fascination i have for this mouth watering dish....that i forget d hygiene, the place , mood or nething.

I guess its d KU effect....i mean having 8 in one go is too much but doesnt matter.This is how i look at them...One water ball is like one big tension...chewing it means i am killing it....n the water there in is like sour experience the tension gave....paani puri finishes n its like tension gone...n what remains is one big smile.......

Dialogue of d post: "I just want to say I love you." Kareena in Omkara-Actually she sings it with a guitar n d effect it gives is absolutely romantic.

Everybody says i am fine...

Yeah this is the title of Rahul bose directed movie....but this post has nothing to with it as i have nt seen it.How re u doing?....Good, fine, not bad, cool.......u say?

It is so uncool to be not fine. Meeting up n number of people in a day...staying conscious about what to say n what not. What to share ...what not. Always having to carry a face cover.....meeting people u dislike with a smile.....n showing people u love that u can manage without them. Being so strong in front of world n wailing inside quietly.

We become someone else....just to be fine in front of d world....but is it wrong to be weak, to share ur failures, being low? No no m not looking for d answers just my silly mind keeps irritating me n i tell it just shut up.........everything is FINE........

Guru ki sewa

Its summers here, dont know bout rest of India but north India has that "CHHABEEL" culture. Everyday somewhere or the other u can see people serving " meetha paani" or do i say pink water. They all do this in the name of "guru" serving him through serving mankind.

I always wondered how do these people serve on roads without any hesitation rather with a smile.We had this "chhabeel" organised by our company today n the experience was wonderful.Forget about d burning sun....the sweat...it was all about being together n serving those thirsty people.I had become so engrossed in my today n tomorrow that i forgot how such little things can make ur day n u end up feelin so light n beautiful.........

Dialogue of the post:"Some challenges in life are so beautiful that they are even worth a failure"-Abhishek Bachhan-LOC. Its d translated version dont remember d dialogue in hindi.

Blowing with wind

Long time back i had attended a rock satsang. They play western instruments n sing bhajans .It was as good as a rock concert.The guy who conducted it gave a 2 minute speech n said we keep living in past n future n forget d present.This was some 3 years back.

There is this beautiful feeling surrounding me these days....nothing has happened as such but m enjoyin myself. Just cant make out what it is. M not bothered about tomorrow not cribbing about my present.
Probably its coz of one decision of leaving all those branded companies who had nothin much to offer n joinin a small company fr my internship.

If there is choco chip lying in front of you but u like vanilla, i ll say pick vanilla . world may laugh at you but its not bout there laughters ......but your smile.

Dialogue of the post: "Har kisi ki ek kahani hoti hai, aur jab hum doosron se milte hain toh hamari kahani unsey jud jaati hai, aur ek nayi kahani shuru hoti hai"- Saif ali khan-HUM TUM

Finally.......

Just how long can you think of starting a blog a week, a month.......its been a year and a half since i have been thinking n finally the day has come.Going through blogs of people......some of them are so beautiful that i could not dare to start my own.....but there have been so many thoughts taking rounds in my head that if i dont give them a vent they 'll blast my mind some day.

Dialogue of the post: Being a hindi movie buff i think i have learnt a lot from our hindi masala flicks.Some dialogues just touch your heart n stay with you forever. I ll try posting some of my favourites with the posts .